I’m hoping it can be with him, but everything I’ve heard around campus points to Peyton not having the same life-changing revelation I did.Īnd if that’s the case, did I just move across the country for a straight guy? We said that high school didn’t mean anything, but the truth is, that night made me realize who I truly am, and since then, I’ve been trying to find that sense of freedom again. I haven’t had to think about him for four years, but now I can’t get him out of my head.Ĭoming to Franklin University for grad school to follow a boy I hooked up with once is the stupidest thing I could have done. I’m happy to accept that until he turns up in California. And while it was fun, we agree that being with guys isn’t for either of us. The last place I thought I’d find my release is at Levi Vanderbilt’s graduation party. I usually thrive under pressure, but as senior year looms, it all gets too much, and I need an outlet.

I’ve been destined to follow in my NFL-playing fathers’ footsteps since the day I was born. My whole life I’ve had the pressure of being Marcus Talon and Shane Miller’s football prodigy. Losing Tripp? It’s not an option.If you never fooled around with someone of the same gender, did you even go to high school? This PR nightmare could lose me the only person I’ve ever loved. Not only does it have team management breathing down my neck, but it puts a strain on my friendship with Tripp.

According to ex-girlfriends, that makes me “irresponsible.”īut the solution I come up with to get over my fear of commitment might be my dumbest idea yet. What more do I need? To settle down? No thank you. I have hockey, and I have my best friend, Tripp. It’s what I’m known for, and usually I don’t let it get to me. They say Dexter Mitchale is my weakness, but if that’s true, I don’t want to be strong. I can’t leave him in a time of need, even if my friends say it’s my biggest downfall. If there’s one thing I hate more than being hurt, it’s seeing Dex struggle. But when his relationship falls apart and he turns to me for comfort, I cave immediately. Years of pining have left me exhausted, and I need a break from Dex.

The worst part of being in love with my straight best friend is the fact he’s too oblivious to see it.

Can't Say Goodbye by Eden Finley